As I sit here too late at night to think, I wonder: where has my time has gone?
Like any new mom, I am tired. But I am not tired because Addie doesn’t sleep. I am tired because I don’t sleep. My mother is coming tomorrow, but the house is already so clean that I decided I had to wash the couch cushions before she arrived.
The. Couch. Cushions.
Did I mention one couch is brown and one is cream?
That’s two separate cycles. Two different detergents. And twice the drying time.
That’s not to say that my house is immaculate. I have sewing material from one end of the dining room to the other, from fabric to thread… I NEED to get a pin cushion. That makes me feel about 100 years old. However, there is no hair on the floors, the bathroom is scrubbed and my bedroom can’t be vacuumed at 11pm. And so, the couch cushions are being picked on. Plus, they smell like Carter. The dog.
My real reason for wracking my brain is where is my writing? I have been looking for the same passion I possessed when I wrote my first post. When Addie was still trapped by wires and IVs in a hospital bed. When I looked at her and was filled with so much love and fear I thought I would explode from the pressure building in my body. But, I didn’t. I wrote. I released it all and I felt better. The research I found, the community built around me and the love and support of family were all I needed.
We came home, and I wrote more and more. I looked down at her and felt home. Free. Accomplished. I felt love.
I have been so obsessed with getting all of my emotions, science and fun about Delaware out that I’ve forgotten how to organize my brain. I’m so focused, I cannot focus! And so (finally), I have a post coming… a fun post- something great for parents looking for alternative travel. I wanted to whet your appetite and let you know: I DID NOT FORGET ABOUT YOU, READERS!
Sometimes, I forget about me. I sit with my glass of wine and talk with my husband, but I forget to get on the computer and get it all out of me. Release all of the things I need to say into this damned machine that entraps me with LIKE, Approve Tag, Pin, Share, and the sorts.
I like to write. I need to write. And I want to let you know… everything went great in Delaware! I have travel tips coming soon, as well as new growth and milestone charts for achon babies (parents, I hope your printers are working), more information about children with dwarfism in general, and a whole slew of new thoughts brewing in this over-tired brain! Thanks for sticking with me!
Addie thanks you, too!