When I first found out about The Revelation Project HERE, I was intrigued, but not sold. What would I find out about myself that I didn’t know before?
I’d find out about me.
Not me the mom. Me the wife. Me the sister. Me the daughter. Me the child of loss. Me the child of private school and varsity teams. Me of public school and cliques and sadness. Me the runner. Me the friend. Me the lover. Me the writer. Me the reader. Me of Huntingdon Valley. Me of Providence. Me of Cranston. Me the comfortable shopper. Me the woman unable to pay for milk. Me the dog lover. Me the cat whisperer. Me the aunt. Me.
I found out about myself from just the initial introduction. The few questions posed to me in the initial email, like what is your “life’s mission”, what is your intention for Reveal365- why are you here, what is compelling, what do you want to get out of this, what are you committing to, what do you need from your community, choose one sentence that describes your childhood, who are you when no one is judging you, three words to describe you at this point in your life?
And here I am, wondering how to answer these. My life’s mission? Why am I here? What do I need? My childhood? When no one is judging me? My life. Now?
Well… my life’s mission is to be happy and encourage the happiness in others. I hope I make my family happy, but if I’ve learned anything from being the daughter of a psychologist, it’s that no one makes you happy. I am on a mission to educate, advocate. To bring awareness. To make the world a better place. I’m a part of Reveal365 because I lost me. I don’t know me. You ask who I am… I have no idea. I haven’t reflected on that question in over a decade.
My needs? No one asks me that. I have no idea what I need from others. I need support- a hug, an ear, someone who doesn’t want to fix my problems but just listen. I need a friend or two. I need to not be in a catty relationship. I need sisterhood. If I described my childhood it would depress most, but if I summed it up in 3 words it would be warmth, cultivating, free. I always felt loved, I was always told I could do what I wanted, I was free of pain. And then, I wasn’t.
When no one is judging me… wait. When is no one judging me? I have no idea who I am when I’m not worried about what someone else thinks.
My life now is chaos. It’s a mess. It’s impoverished in money and rich in love. But would those three words: chaos, mess, impoverished really describe my life? No. My life is, right now: pending, loving, beautiful. We want to move. We are so full of love. Our family is my picturesque.
Wow. I learned all that in the hour I took answering my profile questions.
What was needed to participate?
- Access to the computer
- A journal for your doodling, reflecting, writing.
- A digital camera (your phone is perfect too)
- A willingness to have fun, explore, and create.
Check. Check. Check. Check.
Let’s do this.
In almost two months of membership, I have a beautiful box of memories and 60 days of reflecting on myself. Looking into my current experiences, past lessons and future endeavors to better shape my responses to myself. To remember to put me first sometimes. To embrace my flaws as the pieces which make up the puzzle Chelley. No longer ashamed of the little things in life, like a quick temper or loud laughter- that’s trademark Me! Unable to lose 5 pounds, a round face, crooked pinkies? I’m built like a woman. I’ve born a child. My face reflects my own mother, as my pinkies mimic her hands of love, as well. I grind my teeth, I like to run in all weather, I fear the dark when I’m alone. I’m passionate. I dream big. I take the world on. I don’t like not knowing. I love other women. I love being a part of a sisterhood.
I won’t give up knowing me again.
So where will you begin? I hope you sign up for your own journey, and I truly hope YOU win the opportunity to see how beautiful, stunning, epic, amazing, breathtaking you are. How do I know you are? Because ALL women are these things, and so much more. It’s fact.
To help you begin your journey, I invite you to enter to win the TRP Photo Session Package, valued at $379! A giveaway unprecedented by The Revelation Project or ShutterCal, partner of TRP. Something I myself have not taken part in, but pour over the images of women who have, awed by their stunning portraits, candid moments, and raw beauty. Learn more about the experience from a woman who learned it HERE.